Always on my Mind

I have learned my lessons,

and I have shed all the tears.

I have covered all of my scars,

I may have been bitter and bent,

But those words I said I meant.

So when you run and I know you will,

Make sure you run towards something much more fulling.

I have taken all the shots to my jaw,

and I built up this great big wall.

I hand crafted these words to your letter,

but why should I ever send it?

I trusted my heart with yours,

but my lust took complete control.

Now it lays here with me alone on this floor.

I have taken your love with passion and care,

You took mine and you buried it with everyone else's.

So you may have completely forgot about someone like me,

but your beauty will always be on my mind.

The Search for True Friends

I want to have friends that I can trust,

And I don't have to worry about what words come out.

I want to be able to lose myself completely,

and slip away from this space for as long as I need.

I want to fit into a place where I can be comfortable,

I can put my feet up and fall asleep as I please.

I want to have friends that will listen to my thoughts,

and I am not forced to shut my mouth.

Will you ever want to be my friend?

I want to laugh and just have fun.

And I don't want to have to worry about being wrong.

I don't want to feel ashamed when I laugh at something funny. 

I want to have friends that will love me for the man that I have become,

and not that man that I was.

I want to run free in this world with my friends,

and never have to look back in regret.

I just want to be loved.

Weapon of Destruction

I have been roaming the country side,

I would hit all the major cities, and

then travel back to the open lands.

I stole all the water that I could find,

and I poured it from way above.

Those days were so dark,

and the winds would rip things apart.

I remember running and screaming,

knocking down anything in my way.

That's when I met her.

She was so calm before I came,

and she would say nothing for miles.

I got trapped in her waves.

I recall spinning and spiraling out of control.

She just had this type of hold,

and I wish she would never let me go.

But I was just the storm that passes through,

and destroys everything that gets to close.

House isn't a Home

I am just a lonely scavenger lost in this wilderness.

I can't seem to find my love anywhere.

I am slowly losing faith in myself.

All of my worst fears are becoming true,

and all of my wants and needs just disappear.

I am so worn down and pour.

These are my rags, where are the riches?

Oh I miss the confront of our house,

I miss the love we built together,

and all the memories we created.

All the windows have been boarded up,

and we ran from all our adventures.

Now I walk with such regret.

I must be this bad person,

I guess I wasn't worth it, at all.

I remember fighting for us,

But I am now so sick and tired.

and I just don't care if it gets cold,

I am going until I am getting home.

How did I come this far?

I used to be so young, how did I get so old?

all these structures are falling down around me,

but I am not giving up until I have found your peaceful memory.
Even if this house isn't a home anymore.  

Anodyne

I have gotten so close to your skin,

I was hoping to make this loss a win.

I can't get loose from all your little quirks.

I just wanted to use the things that work.

You seem to be stuck on my brain,

I feel so crazy but I could be sane.

It feels like these words were tattooed to my forehead.

But I made my bed now I have to lay down in it.

You were my emotional waste station,

where I would dump all of my messes,

Always hoping you would clean them up.

I will be your drug if you need it.

I will scare away all your fears.

I will be your obsession addiction that your chasing so hard.

I will be your love if you want it.

 

So I will give you permission to drag me along,

and if it makes you feel any better I will stop acting a fool,

but don't feel bad when I say you should too. 

I was patiently erasing all those bad memories,

where you disagreed with my points of view.

We did everything in an orderly time,

but everything ended up so late.

And though you ran from your home,

I still want everything to be just fine.

I just want you to be all mine.

I will be your drug if you still need it.

I will take the pain from you and place on myself.

I will be everything that you crave for you.

I will be your love if you want it.